If you've guessed, this post isn't scheduled and it's something that I never thought I'd be writing about, primarily because it's one of those things that, if I think about for too long I start to cry.

I have a dog and since forever, I have loved her with all my heart. And it's only because of recently that's made me realize how important she really is to me. Here's just a few traits of her personality, for you to get to know her that bit more. Sukie is ten years old but has this whole Benjamin Button thing about her, she doesn't look older than maybe three or four. She's never understood that she's a Jack Russell and thinks herself more of this supersonic greyhound. Despite her tiny frame, she's incredibly feisty and believes she can take down any dog, no matter their size. Completely different with people though, prepare to be covered in
hairs if you meet her. If you're lucky and get her excited enough, she'll do a little wee on your shoes. When I first got her I contemplated calling her Princess (because I was a 9 year old girl), but that's exactly what she isn't. She hates most animals, loves barking at nothing, will eat almost anything and trifles in muck.
Last Sunday (3rd of September), myself and my family woke up to some terrifying behaviour from my dog. She had vomited multiple times throughout the night. Some of which was actual food, the majority of of it, however, was a dark greenish brown liquid. I had been with her the night before, as per usual, and there had been no signs of anything indifferent about how she usually is. So understandably, we were very worried. She refused to get out of bed, she looked extremely gaunt and her breathing alternated between sounding forced and full-on whimpers.
Immediately, we called the vet and told them we were coming up. She's one of those dogs that doesn't let you know whats wrong with her until it's nearly too late. I'm pretty sensitive when its to do with dogs so when it's my own pup that's ill, the effect is more or less tenfold. I think visually and by the sound of my voice, it was easy to tell how worried I was for her. When we brought her to the vet, we seriously knew something was wrong because of how little she reacted with the other animals in the waiting room. She barely paid them attention, which told us that she really wasn't feeling well because she's so combative when it comes to other dogs or cats on any other normal day. we were there only a few minutes before someone came to weigh her. She was supposed to weigh between 6 and 8 kg, and Sukie was coming up at just under 5 kg, which was expected to be because of all the vomiting that she had done the night before. I decided against going into the actual surgery room with her and my dad, because years before when we brought her I had to leave because I just can't really cope with seeing them prod her and whatnot. A lot of the sensitivity I was feeling, I think, was due to the fact that I was to be leaving Ireland the following morning and I knew that ultimately she would still be sick when I was doing so. It was understood that she needed urgent medical attention and so the vet took her straight into the clinic, not before she vomited all over the floor of the reception.
We were told to go back home and just wait for them to call us, we had also been informed that they were going to put her on some fluids and take an x-ray to see if they could spot anything wrong with her. It's never happened, that I've brought her to the vet and not come back home with her, so that was extremely hard.
Hours later, the vet rang and talked on the phone with my dad. A lot of which, I couldn't hear. However, one of the things that was mentioned was HGE. The vet had said that Sukie began to pass blood and so much of it that they were worried she wouldn't be able to recover. Her body temperature had also dropped significantly and they were struggling to get it back up. It was decided she would stay the night with them.
Probably wasn't the best thing to do, but as soon as I was able, I started looking up what HGE was, as well as declining a few worried facebook calls from Patrick that I should have answered.
HGE is an intestinal disease, otherwise known as hemorrhagic gastroenteritis. It can occur in healthy dogs and does not vary with age, breed, size or gender. HGE can be extremely fatal to dogs, so it's important to act as quick as possible in that regard. It's a fast acting disease that plagues your dog within hours, and if given the chance will make your dog succumb to it even quicker than the symptoms start to occur.
The following morning I left for France, to start a trip that I had been so excited for, but felt reluctant to leave. That first night in Paris, I was told over the phone that the clinic was surprised she made it through the night, however, she was still very ill and would have to stay in. The following day, my parents were told to think about putting her to sleep. She had lost a tonne of blood, her temperature was falling and there wasn't much medication they could administer to her because she was so small at this point. My parents assured me that they would go up themselves the next day and see her, but to understand that it would be cruel to make her go through any more of the pain that she has already been going through for two days. That night was probably the most difficult because I thought that I would be going on a holiday and coming back home to house where there was no Sukie. The next day, I badgered my mam to hear about how she was. And to everyone's surprise, she had picked herself up overnight and attempted to drink some water. Slowly but surely she began to make even more improvements and by the time my parents got to the clinic, she was walking around the room and jumping up to see them.
I literally cannot tell you how elated I was, I cried when my mam sent me a video of her.


I'm home now and so is she. Despite leaving one of the most beautiful cities in the world and spending all my time with Patrick, I was excited to get home and see my baby. Noticeably, she's extremely different to how I remember her being, but there's still a lot of recovering to do. She's quiet and more subdued. She has a decent amount of medication for such a tiny pup. She sleeps a lot now too, which I'm not used to because she's usually so full of energy. Consequently, she did lose a lot of weight and it came as a shock to me to see her when I came back. She's considerably skinnier, her ribs are visible and she just feels so weak under your hands. She's a bit apprehensive about where you touch her in comparison to the play fights she was able for, not even 10 days ago. But I am so lucky that I have the toughest little dog in the world. And the only parts of her that we've lost, will most definitely grow back.

Lots and lots of love and kisses to my doggy and all the other HGE doggies that I have never heard of up until this point, and to their owners, who's heartbreak I have experienced and never ever ever want to again.
Take care of your pups.
Why aren't scientists focusing on immortalizing dogs?
Talk soon,
Lauren & Sukie