New Year Resolutions for 2018.

Absolutely TYPICAL blogpost but how else am I going to feel bad about not achieving them without immortalizing them forever online for all my friends and family to see?

I used to make these scrapbook journal sort of things out of my old school journals. I started my first on the 20th of February 2014, and although they do contain stupid drawings and pages full of random pieces of writing, in every book one of the first pages I write out are my not so new new-year resolutions. Upon flicking through a few of the books, I've realized that I've never completed any of my resolutions.



My first was to 'sign up for everything, get to know people and take every opportunity'. Obviously almost four years ago, the reasons behind my intentions were quite different as to why I would be completing them. In school, I blamed my lack of a social life, pretty much, down to me being quiet and weird and not being friends with the more favorable people at the time. Now, that's not the case. I've proven that I can make friends, so that was never the problem. The problem is that I always say no. Literally to everything, so in a sense I'm the exact same person. I don't sign up for anything and I avoid situations where I have to act on something. One thing in particular that I've noticed. I quit stuff that I'm good at. I just stop, because I'm lazy or otherwise. And I'm not going to do that anymore.
#1. Get out of your comfort zone. 

The second of my quite short list was to read more. Clearly 16 year old me had no idea that I would be studying English in college. However, she's right. Although I am required to read a tonne in college, I do it now because I have to not because I want to. And I want to want to start reading again, if that makes sense. I used to have my head stuck in a book every night. Although, I'm blaming Patrick for my lack of doing so recently, Patrick and facetime.
#2. You're slowing down and losing interest, start reading again. 

My third resolution was one that I think is on everybody's list. It's always been on mine. 'Get fit, lose some weight. You're getting chubby and no girl nowadays is supposed to be. You'll look much better and you'll probably feel it too', this is genuinely what I wrote. Although then it was definitely the pressures of school and wanting to look like the pretty girls, I really want to do it this year. I used to be so sporty, really interested in it. Admittedly, I started to dislike team sports because I was never part of the elite. Then, it was obviously jealousy and feeling not quite good enough. Now, I realize that that's not bad, there's things I'm better at than others and vice versa. However, working out and exercising can be very much a solo process. To begin with, I have the right ingredients; two arms and two legs, so what's taking me so long.
#3. Look good, feel good. 

There were a few more unrealistic and trivial resolutions written down that I've given up on permanently. For example; juggling.

There's one more that I want to add and it's one that I've already mentioned before this post. And it is that I need to stop eating foods that I shouldn't be eating, i.e Gluten.
#4. Start an actual gluten-free diet. 

This post is reassurance for myself to try my utmost hardest to find results in what I do. Hopefully, if I start slacking, the idea that people will notice will embarrass me enough to realize what I'm throwing away.